"Recent turns in my work make it hard to deny the cyclical nature of my efforts. This is fine in the way of learning and progressing in combining different attitudes of perspective, but it does feel a little like running in circles. To break it is the challenge. My cyclical evolution needs to give way to linear progress at some point. This would force me to stick to a specific attitude long enough to see some form of true academic refinement. I am not satisfied enough with any of the attitudes I've been working in to devote my complete attention to it. This will stay on my mind until I stumble on to something in my searching that I am excited enough about to sacrifice the rest to attend to. My plan for searching is to become more manic in attitude, every emotion, every idea, each gesture I must carry out to It's most vivid true realization, unabashedly."
This was written before the "Evolution of a Letter" series. Obviously you can see that those letters were a manifestation of these sentiments.